Due to this circumstance/drama, I sort of fell into a spiral (not an upward one either). My knee jerk reaction was massive. I found myself out of a job (I was working for a sibling and had done so for three and a half years). I needed counselling to get over leaving my job, and dealing in general. My alcohol consumption increased (hey, I needed to relax). I did nothing whatsoever to help myself. My ever patient husband was becoming increasingly worried.
2014 actually started quite well and the first six months were fine. But the second?... don't ask!
However, I did manage to get a really good 'new' job, but my frame of mind didn't adjust. I was still in shock so to speak. My mind felt frantic, I wasn't calm and was treading water in the waves, not swimming through them.
The epiphany!
There's nothing like a couple of weeks annual leave doing nothing to allow the mind to get back into perspective. I now realise that I have not been living... I have been existing. Putting my head in the sand. Time to get my backside off the couch, leave the wine for weekends (no longer to be used as a nightly dose of relaxation) and use my time a lot more productively. Time to dance with the waves not drown in them.
Even as I write this, my head is filling with thoughts and feeling stimulated. Yay - welcome back me!!
I always used to live by the mantra "the more you do, the more you do" - time to use that old chestnut again, as unfortunately the reverse is also true.
As I gather my thoughts, hopefully my momentum will increase and I will get more done. I haven't even decided all of the things I'm going to be pro-active about yet.. that will evolve as time moves forward. No need to rush. I do however, have a couple of initial things that are driving me.
1. Financial independence (we, (my husband and I) DO NOT want to keep working until we're 75).
2. Make some art (stop talking about it)
3. Watch this space.
Now the first two points are 'out there' (goddamn it) I have to do something about it....
1. Financial independence - The cogs on the wheel have moved one notch - I have signed up for a seminar with a local wealth coach. I'll keep you posted on how that goes.
2. Make some art.... well I do have a lime green wall that is screaming out for some canvases that I have been talking about for three months... might be time to do something about that :)
So this is day one of my brand new "Pro-active not re-active life". Wish me luck.
